=)

I had so much love to give
Till the last day Imma live
And I know that you could see how
I was tripping on my feet

So much that I can't get back
Nothing I regret about
There's nothing time can't heal
You don't deserve how I feel

I'm not the spare parts, i'm the engine
no matter what they been tellin, no matter what they seen
You're poison to my system, leech to my blood
that piece of meat in my teeth that's fucking stuck
I'm not a fucking candle, I'm the torch
And to darth vader, I'm his fucking force

Like a rat in the attic, dead body in my fucking basement
Trust me, you will never find a fucking replacement
You claim to be a playa, I own the game
We both know that it won't be the same

You can't wash me off your hands
I'm the lead singer in your rock band
When you're falling down, I'm your fucking parachute
If you were the snake, I'm your damned flute

When you get lost, i'm your map
you're my wings that i can't flap
All my life, I never prayed for someone like you
And I don't give a shit if you don't feel the same way to

It's Okay

Sometimes things just don't work out the way we want it to.
Even after trying your best to change for the better
sometimes all that means nothing to the rest

Yeah well.

I now have a big room to keep myself busy in. Decorate it and shit.

Meh. Sad.

Should've stayed the same way I came.

2 more weeks

Yes, the flight has been postponed.

Bought a pack of cigarettes to help me through these 2 weeks.

fuck you saudi and your damned hypocritical rules.

2 More Weeks

What summer can do to your skin.

Why I wanna go back to Malaysia:
1. My skin's still refusing to get used to the damned weather. I'm not going to describe how my skin feels and looks like at the moment as it is not my wish to disgust my "readers".
2. I have to get on an 1 hour bus to go to the malls, because women are not allowed to drive outside the compound. To make matters worse, we have to leave at 8 am so that we can actually shop before the shops close at Zhuhur. That I don't mind. It's the amount of time they take to pray. 30 min to an hour. Seriously?
3. The books in the library suck.
4. There are only a few of returning students and they're stuck up. Well, not stuck up, but they've all known each other for years as they've kept each other alive through the ras tanura aramco school years. So yeah, some bond I can't (and won't) join.
5. All my friends go back home to meet their family AND friends. I, on the other hand, have not had the chance to bloody make friends over here. once I did, they leave. so yeah. No, i'm not being emo. I'm just annoyed.
6. No cinema.
7. No sheesha place as this compound is filled with little kids.

The good things:
1. I can cook (coz it's family kitchen, not shared with strangers)
2. Beach

That's all.